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(no subject) [Oct. 10th, 2005|08:55 am]
David
I dont know....Do you guys think im the bad guy?


10/9/2005 9:53:09 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy hey, you busy?
10/9/2005 10:22:53 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath hey whats up
10/9/2005 10:23:13 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath sry, was finishing up my studying
10/9/2005 10:23:18 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy so have you talked to dustin?
10/9/2005 10:23:26 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath talked to him a lil on saturday
10/9/2005 10:24:15 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy well from what i've heard apparently you and him are kinda buddies now and talking shit about me
10/9/2005 10:24:39 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath oh like what shit
10/9/2005 10:25:38 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy i've lied or cheated on you both or something like that
10/9/2005 10:25:59 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy he supposivily called me a ho
10/9/2005 10:27:19 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath ok yeah he did call u a ho but i dont see how this has anything to do with me talking shit, what did i apparently say
10/9/2005 10:28:45 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy somehow i've lied to you, and marshall told you both i've slept with someone else
10/9/2005 10:29:19 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath did u
10/9/2005 10:29:26 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy lie to you?
10/9/2005 10:29:37 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath well both but yeah
10/9/2005 10:30:41 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy no i have not lied to you or him, there's nothing to lie about, i have not cheated on either of you, but i have slept with someone since we broke up, but i'm and adult and that's my choice
10/9/2005 10:31:16 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath so what happened with the whole "I dont want to see other people" thing then
10/9/2005 10:31:24 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy i'm not seeing anyone
10/9/2005 10:32:14 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy it was someone i've been friends with way before you or dustin, we just got together one evening cause we haven't seen eachother in awhile
10/9/2005 10:32:33 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath im sry but i really dont want to hear that....
10/9/2005 10:33:07 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy well i don't want to hear from other people that you and him are friends now, but yet you can talk shit about him when he's gone and now talk with him about me
10/9/2005 10:34:06 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath well i dont want to hear details about a date between u and some guy that ended up with u have sex with him when u told me that you didnt want to see other people, but i guess sleeping with other people is ok
10/9/2005 10:34:20 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath of course i talked about you cuz i was pissed
10/9/2005 10:34:49 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy we wasn't on a date, he was a friend that came over and we hung out
10/9/2005 10:35:20 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy pissed about what
10/9/2005 10:37:01 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath by hearing from marshal of all people at work that u had sex with somebody else after we broke up...i thought i had an understanding as to what u meant by "seeing other people" but apparently i was wrong in assuming that and thats what i got mad about....
10/9/2005 10:37:46 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy i never told marshall that
10/9/2005 10:38:08 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy so you thought it was ok to tell dustin all that too?
10/9/2005 10:38:30 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath dustin was standing there when marshal told me that i didnt tell him shit
10/9/2005 10:38:42 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath he all heard it on his own
10/9/2005 10:39:21 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy why are you telling people i lied to you?
10/9/2005 10:40:30 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath i just got done saying it: "For the love of god and all that is holy says: by hearing from marshal of all people at work that u had sex with somebody else after we broke up...i thought i had an understanding as to what u meant by "seeing other people" but apparently i was wrong in assuming that and thats what i got mad about...." thats why
10/9/2005 10:40:42 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath cuz i thought something diff. then u did
10/9/2005 10:41:45 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy so just because we are broke up, and i slept with someone else 1 time, i lied to you?
10/9/2005 10:43:14 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath omg....yes because i thought u meant that u did not want to see anyone or SLEEP with anyone because you said "I dont want to see other people" so when i heard that i assumed you lied to me, but obviously u had a different meaning then i did
10/9/2005 10:44:33 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy i said i didn't want to see anyone
10/9/2005 10:46:31 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath ok
10/9/2005 10:49:23 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy if i have sex with someone else, it's nobodys business but my own, i did not lie to you, i'm not seeing anyone and don't want to
10/9/2005 10:52:07 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath ok
10/9/2005 10:55:21 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy did you tell marshall and sharron that i was dating 4 or 5 guys?
10/9/2005 10:56:03 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath no, told chiron that there was 3 other guys...nothing to marshal and nothing about dating
10/9/2005 10:57:05 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy she told me you said that, and scott told me that marshall told him that
10/9/2005 10:57:34 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy so then what did you say to her about 3 other guys?
10/9/2005 10:57:48 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath i just told her that there were 3 other guys u were thinking about
10/9/2005 10:59:54 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy thinking about for what?
10/9/2005 11:01:09 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath seeing
10/9/2005 11:02:51 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy well is i wanted her, marshall and dustin to know everything i would have told them myself, you should get things straight before you start telling everyone
10/9/2005 11:04:39 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath u should start telling them straight so i know what to think instead of just leaving some room for assumptions so if this does happen like it did i know what im talking about
10/9/2005 11:04:46 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath so im sry it happened
10/9/2005 11:05:06 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath ok im sry for trying to make sense out of what all u told me, i should have known better
10/9/2005 11:05:48 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy anything i tell someone is the exact same i told you and dustin, i don't add stuff or anything like that
10/9/2005 11:10:29 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy well don't worry, it won't be happening again. apparently i can't talk to anyone at work but 2 people
10/9/2005 11:13:22 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath u know what, im sry things didnt work out, im sry for the misunderstandings, im sry for whats going on at work, if you dont want to accept my apology, if dont want to work things out, if you want to hold a grudge and stay pissed at me fine
10/9/2005 11:13:40 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath i cant control what u do or say
10/9/2005 11:14:39 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy i didn't say i'm pissed at you or that i don't accept you apology, i just don't like people telling others shit about me that isn't true
10/9/2005 11:23:45 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy you know i just can't believe you would have a conversation about me with dustin in the first place
10/9/2005 11:27:32 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath he did most of the talking actually, i was too busy thinking about what marshal told me
10/9/2005 11:29:07 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy so then what was he saying about me?
10/9/2005 11:30:58 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath that u told him that u would never go out with me when you and him were split up and we started talking, he told me that he thought u were a ho and that he came up the other in his formal dress uniform and he said that you coulda had that
10/9/2005 11:31:31 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath Kreath says: hey, you busy? For the love of god and all that is holy says: hey whats up For the love of god and all that is holy says: sry, was finishing up my studying Kreath says: so have you talked to dustin? For the love of god and all that is holy says: talked to him a lil on saturday Kreath says: well from what i've heard apparently you and him are kinda buddies now and talking shit about me
10/9/2005 11:32:30 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath sry my computer is acting up...
10/9/2005 11:33:00 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy i coulda had what?
10/9/2005 11:33:08 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath him
10/9/2005 11:33:16 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath or him now
10/9/2005 11:33:48 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy why did he say i was a ho?
10/9/2005 11:34:30 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath i dont know he just told a couple of people that he thought u were a ho
10/9/2005 11:34:40 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath and he didnt care if someone told u that
10/9/2005 11:34:53 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath he even put his cell phone number down on a card so u could call him
10/9/2005 11:35:21 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy sherron told me that, but whoever he said that too never gave the card to me
10/9/2005 11:36:12 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy so then what else did you say about me?
10/9/2005 11:36:39 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath the only thing i said was how i thought it was messed up that u did that and lied to me
10/9/2005 11:38:45 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy well i'm sure you said something else and just don't want to tell me, cause i know how you are, but that's ok, i'm not worried about it
10/9/2005 11:38:56 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath oh and how i am
10/9/2005 11:40:46 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy say something one day and something else the next
10/9/2005 11:41:31 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy and your talking directly to me, so you probably wont tell me if there was anything else said
10/9/2005 11:42:33 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath well i cant tell you what to believe, your an adult and you can decide for yourself, i cant do a damn thing about it
10/9/2005 11:42:43 PM For the love of god and all that is holy Kreath but thats what i said
10/9/2005 11:45:21 PM Kreath For the love of god and all that is holy i didn't say i don't believe you, i'm just sure there's more to the whole story than what people are telling me
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brow piercing [Sep. 21st, 2005|01:18 pm]
David
So yeah a lot has happened since I last updated, well I guess that goes without saying, me and kreath are on a break whatever that means, I got my eyebrow pierced tuesday and I love it. Its so awesome. But back to me and Kreath, its been almost a month since we took our 'break' and yeah I miss her, I hope she knows and sees the way I feel about her. But you know I have been known to over-worry and stress about things so maybe its all in my head I dont know what to do...guess theres nothing to do but wait I suppose, oh well...well my puter class is bout to start so im off of here, later.
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(no subject) [Aug. 31st, 2005|01:17 am]
David
A wise man once told me that we as humans are always searching for a meaning. A meaning to life, to stress, to bad events, to every question their is and will be. Without that meaning there is chaos. The definition of an artist is someone who makes meaning out of chaos, the artist who writes a poem to signify pain, agony, hurt, and his/her feelings. Does the hurt and the pain create chaos, or is it the artist who creates chaos to justify the means.

I once had a wish
I once had a dream
Once their was confidence
Once there was you

Nobody cares about my wish
Nobody wants to here my dream
You took that confidence
and you have taken yourself away from me

Where is the song that can explain my feelings
so you can hear how I feel
and so you can see my wish and dream
that song that boils the blood and makes you shake

I wish I could make you see
See what you've done
and see what you've lost

You've lost an empire
You've lost a king
an empire of dirt
and a king of nothing

Nobody cares
Nobody sees
Nobody hears
and everybody goes away

Where is the meaning
Wheres the joke
Im waiting to laugh
19 years of waiting

Waiting for temporary situations go away
and the permanent to stay
Im waiting to see
Im waiting to laugh

But in the end
it all goes away
Everybody goes away
and Im the only one left

Im tired of running the race
Im tired of hearing the laughs
Im tired of being used for amusement
and Im tired of life...
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(no subject) [Aug. 20th, 2005|12:22 am]
David
All of my pain
and my tears
my empire dirt
and my crown of thorns

Tired and torn
hope is fading
but still kindles
crying and sweating blood

The blood is thick
as is the spear in my side
so far away is life
so far away are you

My visions turns red
as the boatman holds out his hand
wanting to reach out
but held down by what remains

Why do I hold on
Why must I carry on
Where are the answers
Why cant I think

Blood is running thin
theres not much time left
but enough time to hope
and to wonder

Everything passes by so slow
but so quick in the end
A scream echos out
A scream for you and for the pain

We learn to love the pain
fuel to the fire of hope
till it burns like a furnace
boiling over in the great below
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(no subject) [Aug. 17th, 2005|10:21 pm]
David
Everything I do is a step backwards
will you be there to catch me when i fall
yeah will you be there
to catch

Play it like a childs game
2 steps forward
and 3 steps back
in the place Ive begun
be there to catch me when I fall

Can I trust a hope
a hope in love and sincerity
will you be there
when I fall

Run around in a circle
like a childs game
singing and teasing
till you fall from being dizzy

Will you be there
or will I fall

I trust you to catch me
but I dont trust you will

A war wages on between two superpowers
who wins and who loses
in the end I lose
but whats to lose

A childs game is what it is
the chaos all around
what fun it is
to all fall down

Shoot your bullets with your sticks
bang bang I got you
Your out of the game little soldier
Sit out till next game

The game ends and its time to wake up
wake up little man its time to learn
Learn from life what you can
Till you fall down

Oh how Ive fallen down
down down down
Who will be there to catch me
Please someone catch me.

~David Hopper
8-17-05
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In memory of Hiroshima, Nagasaki, Chernobyl, and the rest of man-kind [Aug. 8th, 2005|01:45 am]
David
(After seeing the first nuclear weapons test)...We knew the world would not be the same. A few people laughed, a few people cried, most people were silent. I remembered the line from the Hindu scripture, the Bhagavad-Gita. Vishnu is trying to persuade the Prince that he should do his duty and to impress him takes on his multi-armed form and says, "Now, I am become Death, the destroyer of worlds." I suppose we all thought that one way or another.

~James Oppenheimer

http://www.atomicarchive.com/Movies/Movie8.shtml
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(no subject) [Jul. 26th, 2005|12:01 am]
David
Im still suprised this thing is still here, havent updated in forever, didnt really care to i guess. Ive started a new relationship that has been so wonderful, 2 months this wednesday, i think i have found a great connection with this person so im happy. My money situation has gone from bad to worse. My transmission in my truck went out along with 500 other problems it has, so all in all repairs came out to 1,879.84. Big number and a big number I dont have. So I tried pulling out a loan but that didnt work. Damn banks. Finally mamaged to to get money from grandma but now I have to pay 250 a month to her, which was 1,079. On top of that school is bout to start up, Aug. 22, and I need to get 2 NEW books because the professors thought that they needed new books so I get to pay out the ass for it. YAY!, Last thursday was a really emotional draining day for me, there was a miscommunication at work, a really big one, around 6 pm one of the managers came in and pulled me and scott out and told us that my bestest bro had killed himself, when in fact it was his brother who accidentally killed himself, well I freaked and called Kreath, my girl, over to comfort me, I was so broken down, told my mom what happened, she called to talk to his parents about it then 15 min. later I get a call from nate, which shocked the hell outta me. Well thats it folks, maybe Ill do this again soon.
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so this is how it goes... [Apr. 4th, 2005|06:11 pm]
David
*DEEP BREATH*

SPRING BREAK
1.Slept
2.Gym
3.No Work
4.Homework
5.Party
6.Party
7.Lonely
8.Bored

LAST WEEK
1.Back to work
2.Back to school
3.Party
4.Homework

LAST WEEKEND
1.Paycheck
2.Party
3.Arrested
4.Night in CPD jailhouse
5.Released on false arrest
6.Movie-Hitch
7.More cop trouble

So there you go, to whoever still reads this pointless thing, my life in the past couple weeks with no bullshit, ENJOY!
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ME [Feb. 1st, 2005|12:14 am]
David
I sit back and see this world
so selfish and so mean
to take everything away
away from me

Im tired of the games
the games the world and you play
sit back and here me
here my rage and pain

full of adrenaline
full of rage
full of hate
full of pain

everything you gave me
that you didnt want
you didnt want me to see
to hear
or to feel

yeah you gave to me
sit back and relax
the shows about to start
whos to star?

to star in the show
the show i put on
i put it on for you
for you to want
to feel
to hear
me

Its never about me
its about you
everything you gave

so now i spit it at you
how does it feel
to feel the way i do

I hate this place
this life
this pain
this fear
this tearing sensation that rips me apart all for you to see how u feel
never asking me how i feel

now you done it gone and fucked it up
I feel nothing but rage
no love no regret
but remorse for what im about to do
so you can see without eyes

I have intentions to do harm
i have intentions to hate
I hate you
I hate everything you do
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A beautiful day [Jan. 30th, 2005|08:41 pm]
David
An old man walked up to a boy sitting under a tree crying, the old man stopped and asked the boy why he was crying on such a beautiful day. The boy looked up at him and said, "Because I know the answer, I know why we must and why we do, and there is no pity for me because of what I know..." The old man was confused by this and noticed that the boy was holding a picture. He leaned in closer to see what the picture was of. When he looked at the picture he broke down and knelt down to the boy. The old man started to cry and said, "Now I too know the answers that you do, now I know what we must do." Then the old man stood up looked at the boy one last time and walked off. As he walked off he thought to himself how hard it must be for such a young boy to experience so much in such a short life....and he felt pity for him.
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